sure, i know i shldnt be spending time being depressed and all.. but well. just a post on things.
everytime i go home from school. i try to find peeps to go home with. otherwise i'll reach home, Very depressed. or unhappy, in my own words. i jus find this unfair. guys will always have to give in? i dont noe. do girls have to post all their problems on blogs? well. maybe guys post them too. like me, i post problems too sometimes. but.. exagerrating and making long posts abt depression.. trying to get people to symphatise? i dont really think that.. it wld be fair to the guy. u turn ur words around..
confused? not knowing what this entire post is about so far people? explanation at valwave.blogdrive.com . the comments esp. ok? well.. here's an explanation too.
i broke ur heart? im sorry that i did, even though i dont think that is a very justified statement. i wonder who initiated a breakup in the first place. well. i somehow knew that if we patched, i just wouldnt be the same again. i've seen the other side of you now. have you now seen the other side of me? the flirt? the bastard? the one who tries to find a "temporary girl" to fill that empty hole that u once filled. no offence to the girls. i mean. "temporary girl" may not be temporary. no offence. i'm just saying that this is absurd. i personally find that if we do argue, u do not have much solid argumental ground to stand on! not that i want to argue, excuse me. jus stating a few facts.
anyway.. i want to say that. i dont think i did anything wrong. the two crushes.. i'll reveal. one's germaine. one's valerie. valerie no longer exists. germaine stands. my reason? i dont know. after u broke up. i find myself just suddenly attracted to these two girls for no reason at all. maybe cos germaine's smile is just sweet, ultra friendly. and maybe i did like her a bit beforehand. valerie. i never did like her beforehand. i dont know why i fall for her suddenly. maybe its the depression. i dont know! well. different people handle their things differently. im used to handling everything on my own, i cant stand it when people tell me to do this. do that. just do it. why? dont ask just do it. my life or urs.. come on.
ok.. now.. im at a lost of what to do. maybe just go and revise maths. what. length of arc and all that crap. cos sin tan.. whatever. no mood to do anything. nw stop raining liao. otherwise i wld.. well nvm. i wun tell u guys my plan. it has smt to do with getting soaked. *note. Rain sounds louder than screams*. tried b4. then i'd take my guitar out and start plucking and strumming like mad. well.. to hell with everything.. mm. nothing much in this post. its just all described. dont know. cant be bothered. damn.
eugene
14th sept 2110hrs.
anyway.. i want to say that. i dont think i did anything wrong. the two crushes.. i'll reveal. one's germaine. one's valerie. valerie no longer exists. germaine stands. my reason? i dont know. after u broke up. i find myself just suddenly attracted to these two girls for no reason at all. maybe cos germaine's smile is just sweet, ultra friendly. and maybe i did like her a bit beforehand. valerie. i never did like her beforehand. i dont know why i fall for her suddenly. maybe its the depression. i dont know! well. different people handle their things differently. im used to handling everything on my own, i cant stand it when people tell me to do this. do that. just do it. why? dont ask just do it. my life or urs.. come on.
ok.. now.. im at a lost of what to do. maybe just go and revise maths. what. length of arc and all that crap. cos sin tan.. whatever. no mood to do anything. nw stop raining liao. otherwise i wld.. well nvm. i wun tell u guys my plan. it has smt to do with getting soaked. *note. Rain sounds louder than screams*. tried b4. then i'd take my guitar out and start plucking and strumming like mad. well.. to hell with everything.. mm. nothing much in this post. its just all described. dont know. cant be bothered. damn.
eugene
14th sept 2110hrs.
