well.. if av's going to be improving, i suggest all of us get out of this "emptiness" and face the real world. nothing is going to happen if we all keep on groaning to ourselves. keep telling ourselves that things are jus going to get worse. we need to do something about this. not just .. talk. we need to.. get together and talk. this is also directed to me. i need to get all this depression off my blog before it spreads any further.
humairah! didnt know i affected u so much. dont worrie kae... i'll visit, and although i wont be there physically, always remember that. i'll be planning behind the scenes. always will be there if anyone needs guidance in training. in anything. and.. u may think i wanted my management post. well. if u refer to my previous blog. i never did want to do management. i'll tell u why. this is going to be a story.
ok. i joined av in the year 2003. when i was sec one. then, av wasnt a cca just yet. it was.. a service to da school. we did it out of our own will. i didnt even have the SLIGHEST notion that i was going to join av. until that fateful afternoon. that changed the entire person i am. this afternoon will be remembered.
*rewinds back to yr 2003*
i went to canteen to see ming jie and kang yu in canteen. they were talking about some interview thing going on in hall. i went to ask them what it was, since they were in same pri sku as me. so i found out that it was this crappy av meeting. i go for what.. also nv say i wanted to join av at first. i nv submit name.. but in the end ky and mj dragged me along. i had nothing to do anyway.
going up to hall, it was empty. we waited at the benches. those blue ones near the funny stair like things? with pullup bars? audience left. yeah. those. we put our bags down.. and then there was this guy that came running over. i recognise him as shaun lin. [now that i know him. i never knew we wuld grow so close.] so he asked us to write our names and classes on a piece of paper. then we wrote our emails too. teles. and e usual. so yeah. no interview. lots of ppl started coming tho. [i can name most of them now. shaun, kang sheng, daniel ho, ansley, sihui, royce, joon tat, rolland, james tay, weldon, cheong yew, huisin, ju ren, kaiming, stanley, philemon, jonathan, edwin, qing de] so the meeting started. stanley was leading. back then i onli knew him, thru the IT club interview. well. he talked lots. i forgot. den i remembered that he did a vote: "should we expel jonathan tay from av?" jonathan was sec 4 in yr 2003. they say he's a giant flirt who only flirts while on duty. now that i know him, i so totally agree. i think the decision was. : yes.
well. stanley took the meeting to an end. he conducted training, and talked to sec 1s. i cant remember the training. too many that year. well. i went home by bus. i took same bus as stanley and joon tat. 13. [back then, joon tat was under sound. and si hui, the comittee member.] i cant imagine av without jt. if si hui had stayed on, i wonder what wld have happened. aniwaes. that was the afternoon.
*back to the future* irah, that was my first day in av. and i was put under backstage. i wanted to do lighting, but was scared everytime i tried to touch the lighting board. ming jie wasnt there. he was at basketball training. back then yar. so.. i was under backstage for a while. things sorta changed tho. in the usual afternoon in control room in yr 2003, shaun told me that i was going to become quartermaster. i was surprised. me? oh me. ok. yeah ok. and stanley whispered to me that exact thing too. i was surprised. and i questioned myself. can i do this? can i cope?
*a few months down the road.*
i cant stand my job. i cant cue, i cant do things right. i want out.
*rewinds back to yr 2003*
i went to canteen to see ming jie and kang yu in canteen. they were talking about some interview thing going on in hall. i went to ask them what it was, since they were in same pri sku as me. so i found out that it was this crappy av meeting. i go for what.. also nv say i wanted to join av at first. i nv submit name.. but in the end ky and mj dragged me along. i had nothing to do anyway.
going up to hall, it was empty. we waited at the benches. those blue ones near the funny stair like things? with pullup bars? audience left. yeah. those. we put our bags down.. and then there was this guy that came running over. i recognise him as shaun lin. [now that i know him. i never knew we wuld grow so close.] so he asked us to write our names and classes on a piece of paper. then we wrote our emails too. teles. and e usual. so yeah. no interview. lots of ppl started coming tho. [i can name most of them now. shaun, kang sheng, daniel ho, ansley, sihui, royce, joon tat, rolland, james tay, weldon, cheong yew, huisin, ju ren, kaiming, stanley, philemon, jonathan, edwin, qing de] so the meeting started. stanley was leading. back then i onli knew him, thru the IT club interview. well. he talked lots. i forgot. den i remembered that he did a vote: "should we expel jonathan tay from av?" jonathan was sec 4 in yr 2003. they say he's a giant flirt who only flirts while on duty. now that i know him, i so totally agree. i think the decision was. : yes.
well. stanley took the meeting to an end. he conducted training, and talked to sec 1s. i cant remember the training. too many that year. well. i went home by bus. i took same bus as stanley and joon tat. 13. [back then, joon tat was under sound. and si hui, the comittee member.] i cant imagine av without jt. if si hui had stayed on, i wonder what wld have happened. aniwaes. that was the afternoon.
*back to the future* irah, that was my first day in av. and i was put under backstage. i wanted to do lighting, but was scared everytime i tried to touch the lighting board. ming jie wasnt there. he was at basketball training. back then yar. so.. i was under backstage for a while. things sorta changed tho. in the usual afternoon in control room in yr 2003, shaun told me that i was going to become quartermaster. i was surprised. me? oh me. ok. yeah ok. and stanley whispered to me that exact thing too. i was surprised. and i questioned myself. can i do this? can i cope?
*a few months down the road.*
i cant stand my job. i cant cue, i cant do things right. i want out.
back then stanley was the wise person arnd. saying some things that made lots of sense. he pushed my sense back into me and here i am.
*arnd half a yr later*
sec 2. yr 2004. i cannot do management. why cant i do sound?! i dont feel like doing management anymore. [wait i copy+paste the exact words frm old post.]
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*arnd half a yr later*
sec 2. yr 2004. i cannot do management. why cant i do sound?! i dont feel like doing management anymore. [wait i copy+paste the exact words frm old post.]
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... heehee..
idont know wad to sae le.
aiyahx.. i suddenly dont feel lyk doing management in AV le. i feel lyk doing sound instead.. joon tat.. when i said i dont want to do management animore? or rather : when i said ~ If u can find some1 else to do management, i'd gladly be replaced. being beri frank here ok? i mean.. yaR.. i dont knoe what i mean. hm.x. i mean.. lyk.. can replace my management position can le. maybe make use of some of the available sec 2 ppl? look fer talents yar? den can take over me. i'd be.. so satistfied.. thanks.x.. i suddenly lyk. dont feel lyk. continuing to type. sry to all dose reading.. actually haf lotsa stuff to sae. if i dun slp now, i'll never survive tml. sorrie. nitenite.
M4g!cB3g!N5
050304
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oh well. that was me in the past. i didnt want to continue in management. now i see things in a different light. u might wanna read the post. just look for it on my blogdrive. Friday, March 05, 2004. this url. http://magicbegins.blogdrive.com/archive/cm-8_cy-2004_m-8_d-29_y-2004_o-80.html. and look at the comments. 10 of them. irah. these applies to u. there are many things in life which u wanna do. but. well. read on and apply. i gotta go its damn late. aniwae. i hope that. u will wake up. frm that depression. need anything can call me.
oh ya how to forget?! darling came back frm indonesia today.. hope she enjoyed her stay there. im here to say that i love u my strawberry ice cream!
eugene. the promoted mashed potato.
aiyahx.. i suddenly dont feel lyk doing management in AV le. i feel lyk doing sound instead.. joon tat.. when i said i dont want to do management animore? or rather : when i said ~ If u can find some1 else to do management, i'd gladly be replaced. being beri frank here ok? i mean.. yaR.. i dont knoe what i mean. hm.x. i mean.. lyk.. can replace my management position can le. maybe make use of some of the available sec 2 ppl? look fer talents yar? den can take over me. i'd be.. so satistfied.. thanks.x.. i suddenly lyk. dont feel lyk. continuing to type. sry to all dose reading.. actually haf lotsa stuff to sae. if i dun slp now, i'll never survive tml. sorrie. nitenite.
M4g!cB3g!N5
050304
2155hrs
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oh well. that was me in the past. i didnt want to continue in management. now i see things in a different light. u might wanna read the post. just look for it on my blogdrive. Friday, March 05, 2004. this url. http://magicbegins.blogdrive.com/archive/cm-8_cy-2004_m-8_d-29_y-2004_o-80.html. and look at the comments. 10 of them. irah. these applies to u. there are many things in life which u wanna do. but. well. read on and apply. i gotta go its damn late. aniwae. i hope that. u will wake up. frm that depression. need anything can call me.
oh ya how to forget?! darling came back frm indonesia today.. hope she enjoyed her stay there. im here to say that i love u my strawberry ice cream!
eugene. the promoted mashed potato.
