when we were packing up hallstore, they were singing "Journey". what a journey i had, thru the good and the bad, thru all of the troubles, the happy and sad. well. before that, the different departments had representatives to go up and give speeches on how journey felt. wtf? even make-up.. stage.. everyone. everyone was there. we were left out again? ah well. jus wanna let the world kno. yea.. once behind e scenes, always. behind. the scenes. people say. its just pressing the stupid button wad! eject.. play.. pause.. stop..  whatever. u do la! nt that simple ok?

well.. edwin came back to TMS today. he also commented.. [expected =)] so.. yeah. i read this somewhere before. i think it was the email jt sent to mr oh. ehh. yea.. joon tat. i quote ok? if u happen to read this and dont feel comfortable, pls msg me. i'll remove it straight away.

Relationship between AV and the rest of the school in my eyes is that AV has always been taken for granted. u may not see it but from the view of an AV crew member, u could see everything. the lies that people tell, the hypocritsy. we do not strive for the achievement but instead, we strive to achieve, to serve and not only to serve but to serve well. i would think that it is fine with us even if we did not receive any acknowledgement. but the fact is there that it is getting from bad to worse. i could raise a million of examples. 1st. morning assembly. everyday we do and we do quite well too. seldom are there faults. but yet there's still a rule that if something went wrong for morning assembly, we would receive 10 demerits. does anybody know that? i bet even the teachers do not know. and what if i have left 50+ demerits?. my parents called up? what would the principal tell my parents? your son accidentally screwed up the morning assembly 3 times. is that it?.. AV is not cheap elsewhere. the fact that this IS voluntarily and that we could quit anytime, why is this kind of rule implemented? dont u think it is really taking us for granted?. if i were to quit AV now, i bet my parents would go all out to support me. they will.   -Quote NG JOON TAT

now. thats just a small part of the long email. well. yeah. summarising it.. its something like. yeah. mm.. "we do things right. perfectly? maybe not at all times. but with practice, yes. and.. recognition isnt there. it just isnt! i mean.. yeah. fanny was using our mic wasnt she? if mj had pressed the MUTE button.. i mean. or put fader to infinite.. put gain to 0.. stuff like that.. what wld happen? sku scold us rite? when things go right.. during normal assemblies even. i only notice mr eddie tan saying thank you over, and over, and over again. he's the only one. well.. its not so much about the recognition i'd say. but its the hard work we put into the thing.. i mean.. when we screw, please dont come screaming to us that we screwed up? but maybe try to understand that we're not here forever? taken for granted is exactly what i'll say.

well.. here's some sort of illustration. lets say. yeah. we rate everything upon a scale of 10. ok? 0 being lowest, and 10 highest. this is the satistfactory scale[audience]. when the event goes.. perfectly well. mics dont feedback. and things like that. lights are in cue. sound is in cue. bs is. and ts does a wonderful job. when these things happen. performers just take everything for granted.. their satistfactory lvl is.. 5? 6? maybe 8? but we did things perfectly! lets say.. for one performance. our.. lighting was static.maybe not much variation. well.. performers would scold us. they would be like.. why so stiff? can change colour anot? .. lets say their mic isnt on. they scold us. why is my mic not on?! but lets assume that the mic is on. wuld they say anything to us? thank you so much? well.. maybe not. so.. no matter how well we do an event, their satistfactory lvl is? maybe average 5. well. shitty and messed up i'd say. the audience esp. when the mic isnt on, they boo and jeer. wtf? what happens when everything is alright? nothing! well. thts all. disappointed. ya. =). nite.

eugene.