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My Info Name : Lim Fang Jun, Eugene Age : 14 Bdae : 26th August 1990 School : Temasek Secondary.. [Yea man! TMS Rox!]
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Tuesday, August 03, 2004
well.. im usually never feelin like this.
i dunno what put me in such a mood.. is it the weather? am i falling sick? is it my results?
to say that it was a hot day today would be making an understatement. its extremely humid and warm. and where's the shower the radio was broadcasting abt? well. guess nothing can be predicted eh.
yeah. ok. well.. today was basically alright.. xcept for one teeny weeny weeny lil detail. yeah. guess that made my day alright. i was ok in the afternoon. maybe i din think abt it.. i feel the effect around 5.. after i got off the bus.. i thought abt what i wuld do when i got home.. talk to valen.. play mass shattered? my guitar? calculate and make a time table on how and when to save for my electric? i did none of those.. i went on shattered a while.. then realised that it was no point playing. i played my guitar for a few songs, learnt the theory abt barre chords.. my finger culdnt take it. and now im sitting here wondering why am i feeling so sorry for myself. i sound so pampered.
here goes.. today i got my chinese results back. i got 34% for the paper.. well.. i was not the only failure.. but i got the second lowest in class i think. joshua. how much did u get? i kno dominic got 24. well. i didnt feel too bad abt my paper. i even laughed. why am i feeling so sad that i got 34 now? i wont tell my parents at all.. i bet i'd be scolded like fuck. damn.
when i was pri 5, i was pretty ok with my studies. onli in my PSLE did i soar. in pri 5, the first CA, i got 59 for my maths. i came home in tears. i was crying pretty badly. i showed my father my paper and he comforted me and asked me to do better next time.. we went to see my maths teacher.. i forgot who it was. was it mrs veronica tan? i think so. yeah.. she said it was normal.. so. yeah.. my grades gradually got better..
this entire year. my entire sec 2 life, i passed my chinese, only once. with 62 or something. i guess that made my mid yr 50. otherwise i would have bound to fail. i only passed once. i failed every other time. what has gotten into me? am i becoming useless? will i fail my o-levels when im sec 4? what if i fail my Os.. what if i become useless. what if i tell my parents.[will they deprive me of my electric? sure they will.] what if i fail somemore. what if. what if. what if. what if valen's mom thinks im a failure and. well. yea. that wont happen i guess. what if[s] fill my mind.. i dont kno what will happen in the future.. what will i become. a total failure?
when i NEARLY failed my maths in pri 5 i was crying like shit. now i got an F for chinese and im still ok? or am i ok. i dont kno. did i get 32 or 34? i forgot even. why cant i concentrate in classes anymore? science, i'm fooling around. maths? miss chia's lesson? forget it. chinese? dont understand a single word. english? well. never good with whatever she's talking about. DNT? boringgg.. art? who gives a damn abt yusoff. Lit? rajah? nth to say. at least i pay attn in geog. im always scared of mdm suriadi. project work? how to concentrate! hes not even teaching right i guess. pe. mr soh. well. ok. i concentrate. but. look at the subs i dont concentrate in. im a failure arent i? when the chung cheng students came over, some of u may not give a damn. i think our class is getting outta control. we fool around in every single class. what kind of impression are we gonna give? dom will sae smt like: " who cares?" well.. i just feel that we're doing a real bad job as hosts. and yeah. balancing chemical equations? dom. ur a sore loser i guess. come on! just because that CCHS girl got it first, u HAVE to accuse her of cheating. how about if YOU went to another school. [no discrimination intended.] lets say. changkat changi. and u finished the maths paper first, and probably got everything right. how wuld u feel if everyone called u a cheat. copycat and all. think abt how others wuld feel before speaking pls.. dom. nothing ever goes thru ur head does it?
damn.. now how am i going to tell my parents abt my chinese i guess i jus wont tell. i.. think i'll jus go offline.
Posted at 07:47 pm by MagiCbeGiNz
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hey. ok. this is gonna be short. im nt going to talk abt what happened today or anything. =). jus a brief summary. i woke up late.. 6.50. quickly chiong everything. den i got rdy by 7. cool rite. haha. so. ya. raining. my grandfather fetch sis to sku. den fetch me.. i think i got affected by e rain. e entire dae i sneeze like shit.. like sick liddat. ok, done. got chung cheng high student exchange prog.. so they came over. haha. quite a nice bunch i'd say. why my entire class so anti-cchs? =p.
ok. tonight damn wad lor.. i mean. ya. nvm.. my parents went to uncle john's mom-in-law's wake. mm.. darling was studying.. so i din realli wanna disturb ya? cos. aniwae.. i guess that even if i called, she wuldnt be talking wad.. cos. she's studying isnt she? well. maybe not. hhaa.. so in e end. ya. my parents came home. my father, e first things he says is : "eugene. i want you to go and sleep early tonight do u hear me? i dont want you to sleep the entire afternoon away tomorrow again. later tomorrow very tired. den cannot concentrate in class. u better sleep now i tell you."
as expected. i said alright.. i was in e living rm upstairs. so. i was watchin friends.. ya. den.. wtf. i got my facts mixed up darling.. haha. this shows how biased i am. everythig wrong is always daddy. =p. ok. sry. it goes like this. i told my mom that i was saving up for my electric guitar. then, i thought she'd be happy. becos she always says:" u wan to buy that thing.. save ur own money den u can go and buy anything u wan liao lor.." so i thought she'd be happy to kno that her son is learning how to save. in contrast, she told me: "har? another guitar? dont you already have one? is this neccessary?" oh well. i went up to my room. den i thought abt things that they teach us, but dont practise it themselves.. i culdnt help but start tearing. den.. my sneezing worsened.. so.. i started out on my guitar.. i realised that if i strum real hard, it sounds like an electric on overdrive.let the note ring. sounds great. so. yeah. i called darlin.. using hp. ya. nvm. =). so liddat lor. den my father. mm. nvm. i think i bettar go slp. later he make more noise. =) nites ppl.. haha. i miss the electric. so thin.. so smooth. so cool. but.. as much as i miss tht guitar.. i miss my darling more =) luv u baby//
eugene
Posted at 12:25 am by MagiCbeGiNz
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Sunday, August 01, 2004
wow.. its amazing!
loL.. i knew i was crazy over electric guitars before this. but.. when i actually put my hands on a 2 electrics todae, i went mad. lol. and the bass was AWESOME! oh man. ran! we gotta save all our money. i dun care. i got.. 150 for this month. i going to put 75 bucks away for my guitar. i got abt 30 bucks saving. altogether abt 100 bucks liao. i going to work in that shop for the cash. whoa.. =D.
alright.. for those of u out there who are major lost here. ehh. ya. yesterday i went to catch a movie with valen and her fren. darren and charmaine went to another movie. =). so.. ya. they finished earlier. went in first.. so me and valen were late. but marshall was there waiting for us. so. ya. 3 of us went in 1 hr late. well. better late than never. =). no more condemnation! haha..
so. ya. aft that went to mos burger. mam mam. mm. valen went off early.. so. ya, ok.. den me and marshal went to look for my parents. i bought a wrist band. so cool! came in two. so. i gave one to valen. mm. kept the other one, haha.
alright. then we went home. marshall and me played shattered.. den i fell asleep. so marshall continue playing. den he slp too. haha. so. ya. =D
den todae. haha.. ming jie finally went to church =D.keep on coming ya? haha.. learn more abt god and his promises for everyone of us. =). valen and her mom came too =D. haha.. aright, after church.. went to pizza hut to eat. den valen's mum went shopping.. ran and marshall and ming jie run away. lol. left me and darLing. haha. ok.. mm.. not going to talk abt what happened ok baby? =). jus becos i "counselled" you, doesnt mean that i dont love u animore.. come on! haha..love u ok? =D. as much as i did. i mean this.. i want us to last forever. =)..
so. ya. back to my second love. e electric. wa liew.. ! I NEED MONEY! now i have this guitar fund. i put like. a bit of cash in there everyday.. den soon enuff i'll have enuff to get my guitar! ARRGH! e amp is 200! damnit.. cheong yew! control room that one dunnid la hor. gimme baa!.. haha. electric alone also abt 300.. but abt 200 can get one. e one i want is 300.. =.=. hope me papa and mama buy for mi bday.. lol.. =D.. den i happy new year. can use my house hi-fi set as amp. but cannot plug in my effects pedal. later blow system. e person saee one.. if i reali get my electric, then. yeah man! my neighbors are going to complain more. haha.. any electric players out there? wanna gimme some advice? i'd gladly take it =).. haha.. ee.. now strumming on my classical dun sound nice liao! ee.. electric with overdrive sound so much nicer! omg!!!! come on.. i gonna work for this.. anyone have nice jobs to offer? i'm being serious here.. haha.. eekkk!!!! i want it soo badly!
haha.. well.. im going to work for my guitar. no more mac on weekdays. no more un-neccessary cash output. more input bettar. yupx. wahh.. passion! i want the guitar! goosh.. haha. so.. weichoy! NO MORE INVITING ME TO GO MACDONALDS AFT SKU. KFC OSO CANNOT!! and changsong! u heard me too! no more inviting me until i bought my guitar.. haha. i gotta stop listening to rock! shit. e more i listen e more i miss the metallic strings on the heavy electric guitar. its so thin. so cool. so nice. so nice. SO NICE! ahh infatuation! i cant stop thinkin abt it. i'll be dreaming abt it tonight! woot! its sooo beautiful! arrgh.. feels perfect. like my darling. when i hold the guitar. its exactly like holding my baby. such a perfect fit. makes me think that we were born to be made together.. love u darling.. love u my future guitar.. =D haha. enuff postin for tonight.. mwuackx.. love u darling.. =).
Posted at 10:53 pm by MagiCbeGiNz
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Friday, July 30, 2004
well. tonight is a boring night.. =)..
haha. nutting much to do. jus rush my design and tech folio.. its crap. it has no effort at all, and my content is like crap. haha.. well. nvm. =p. mr ramli sae hand in blank also can. haha..
den got art. stupid yusoff. lol. now i draw liao. happy le? =p. ok.. haha...
sigh i veri bored.. darling veri quiet!! :P i wun complain u noisy one u kno.. haha.. e noisier u are e better. XD.. haha. aniwaes.. jus saying i luv u too dear.. =) i miss u so much too.. i just wish u were right beside me now.. den can give u a big big hug and a kiss to accompany that. =D
sigh. nothing much happening todae. i got selected for the what. international wad singing thing. o.0. supposed to go for what competition. den on national day sing or smt. -.- lol. haha.. i sure zao sia one. lol.x.
den afternoon go tuition.. sigh. haha. wait for mommy so long! nvm.. im home now.. haha..
ooh. darling jus let me watch this veri sweet and touching story.. a movie actually. on http://everstar.blogspot.com/
scroll down and click play. =). its touching.. luv u darling.. i'm not going to let u go as long as u dont let me go. =). i *kiss* love *kiss* you!
EuGeNe
Posted at 12:47 am by MagiCbeGiNz
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Thursday, July 29, 2004
i said i wouldnt blog, i take that back now.
my poster is done. i've overshot the curfew. like i even give a damn.
haha. now i'm feeling much better. i guess my previous post was like shit because i felt like crap just now. i apologise ok? haha. thx singchang, for e comment.
ok.. haha. sorrie i was so useless jus now darling.. haha.. my words din help.. i shuld be saying sorry instead of u.. =).. muacks.. anything happen we shall comfort each other ok? i'll be here waiting for u.. =).. if u need me jus talk ok? haha..
so thats it. i have to go now. otherwise tmr i die le. haha.. ok? =P love u darling. haha.. we're in-seperable..
Posted at 12:24 am by MagiCbeGiNz
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Wednesday, July 28, 2004
hey yea. as much as i love my blog and stuff, i wun be blogging tonight i guess.
yeah. haha. im doing some design work. science project poster -.- due date tmr? wtf. this is stupid. lol.
lots of sht i dont kno how to do. i think shermaine and audrey going to slaughter me. my poster is going to be so fking ugly.
hey, yeah. ehh. stupid text rendering so slowly. -.- i noe i shuld have installed p.shop in my notebook. i dont kno where the hell my installation disk went to. aniwae, if i had installed on my laptop, i can do in toilet. cool eh? damn
wad shit.. i shuldnt be blogging. i shuld be chionging my poster. wtf. i nid to be in bed by 10.30? dad. thats a curfew. curfews SUCK. thanks.
ya.. valen hates someone. i know its not me, but. wtf.. nevermind. i guess she'll never know how i feel deep down inside. mm. nevermind.. i think i'll just keep it to myself. like ur keeping things to urself too. yeah. i sound so petty. u have ur own privacy. ah nvm. its nothing. i guess im just my over-protective self again. i better call maine and ask her abt some stuff regarding science project. then i'll break all my f*cking guitar strings playing some stupid chord. i cant break it over whole new world. i'd break my own heart. shit. am i useless or what. cant i just rewind time and start my life over again? so long since i last used this word. heck with everything. omg.i jus realised i wun be in sku for assembly on fri. gotta get duty roster done.
ya. seems so hard cheering someone else up when u urself are trying to make sense of ur own world. thats it. im going to rush my project. how it comes out i dont give a fuck anymore. sorry for vulgarities.. i mean. ya. sorry. thats all. i mean. ya. ok. nevermind.
no one will know. how much feeling i poured out into the poster. if i see it in class, i shall remember the stupid old me.
Posted at 10:07 pm by MagiCbeGiNz
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Tuesday, July 27, 2004
whats with me today.. i dont know.. i feel extremely empty. dont kno.. i shuld just shake this feeling off.
mm. in class i was alright wad.. aft sku still alright wad. jus that during e break between last period and contact time.. i din go for lunch. dunno why also. den.. in class. i like veri bad to timotheos like that. i mean. he was pissin me off. i dont kno how. i so rarely get pissed off. maybe its his crazy face. i'm so mean. i wanted him to obviously piss me off. then i can whack the balls out of him. what's with me? i dont kno why i felt like that. im always the one tellin ppl to stop wacking each other. and timotheos seemed damn angry at marco. i dunno. i jus stopped their fighting. i wanted to disfigure timotheos so god damn badly. why am i feeling like this?
ok.. something's up with egnaro again. i shant post. ok? haha. jus that. mm.. when i see the pics. abt last year's entrepreneurship. i feel so.. memory-like. i mean.. everything is like a memory now. argh. what am i talkin ab. i dont even know. i cant make any sense of these thoughts. i cant put any of them in order. i jus. feel like taking more looks at the pics. mj? have any? i nid. thx. =). and.. mm. the enterprise period of time in my life last year was veri memorable. i felt so distanced frm those things.. i dunno.. but i felt happy. and yeah. i dont know why im like this now. its been so long since i felt like this.
mm. yeah. ok.. darlin? yah.. i just feel like. mm. nevermind. yeah. aniwae, up to u whether u wanna listen to those two guys.. yeah. aniwae.. im veri touchy tonight. i dont kno why. is it my dad? he's forever scolding my sister. he also go and scold my grandmother. doesnt he know that,when u put soup in a bowl, den put it on the stupid table, the stupid thing below will condense? den will have water on e table? tonight have cell at our hse. caregroup. yes i know. but the stupid table will be wiped rite? no nid to go and scold grandma for putting the stupid bowl there. wtf. so unreasonable.
ok. i took a break frm blogging. i distributed egnaro salary. to all those who i accidentally talked to. eg: darling or randford. yeah. =). thats it. haha. e sum. i wont post out here. =). kaess..
aniwae. abt today haha. stupid yusoff. i thought he gonna stop at 20 pumping. idiot sia. do 30. lol. damnit.. lol. ok. chinese. damn. i din kno got test todae lor. C.A. cool rite.. stupid sia. the tian[2] xie[3] han[4] zi[4] i only do two. and i think both also wrong. den the 2nd section. dunno wtf to do sia. i think its the storybk one rite? i dunno. mr niu jus sae tick and cross. so i tick tick cross cross. anihow. section 3. the one where they give meaning. u supposed to find e word. bastard. i left e entire section blank. ok. nxt.. is zao[4] ju[4] and wan[2] cheng[2] ju[4] zi[3]. i blank the entire thing also.. den got the short passage. fill in the blanks. anihow do. next is the li[2] jie[3] ce[4] yan[4]. i reading the stupid passage keep nodding off. keep falling asleep. wtf.. i thought 10 mins den chinese over le. i see wrong time table. lol.x i quickly chiong. den that section is. anihow do. last section. li[2] jie[3] wen[4] da[2]. i read e passage also wanna fall asleep. in the end.. i also dun understand what the stupid thing talking about. so. i think i also can die liao. 100% fail. if i pass, i'll thank God like crazy. =). i only did 65% of the paper. the rest of the 35% i leave blank. den out of the 65%, i think 70% is guess one. so die liao lor. get ready to get F for this stupid test. jus hope no parents signature. =).
err. ya. darling. sorrie if i get jealous easily or anything. haha. one dae i realli nid to give u a taste of ur own medicine. haha.. keep on saying that.. err.. lets see. ok. bev's eyes are veri cute!! lol. bev = example. bev is just an example. haha. her eyes are not cute. =p. not realli good at judging. i just know that i love u more with each and every coming dae baby. sometimes u make me jealous.. sayin that ran's eyes are so cute. sometimes. ya. liddat. but. nvm. i guess i can survive with ur assurance. =). love u.. hope u do too. aniwae. i'll talk to u in private soon kaes? =) love u!.
EUGENE.
[comments frm new ppl are always welcome. =D]
Posted at 10:45 pm by MagiCbeGiNz
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sorrie darling.. sorrie. sorrie..
ooh.. ok. im finally blogging tonight. haha..
uh huh. now i'm watching tv.. discovry channel. unsolved history ya? lol. nice wad.. hee. its abt UFO encounters one. are they true or not. lolz. =p.. kae. darling internet working liao. =D..
haha.. kae. todae in school veri boring!. haha.. no la. pretty ok. no hated subject todae.. tmr got chinese! noo!! damn.. lol. now im coughing like crap.. hee. i cant stop. nvm. haha..
kae. todae in class i was smsing. during recess start, den darling msg me sae charlene likes me. i was like. harr? i dun even knoe charlene. -.-.. lolx.. and what? i stare at her? i dun think so ba.. if i got stare, is stare into blank space, den accidentally stare at her de ok? =). or maybe she a bit special. dunno? but one thing's for sure.. no wae am i going to like another girl. cos i've got YOU! =D luvv u lots..
haha.. hope u can trust me. =). i love u! ok? i wun be staring at other pretty girls or anithing.. ask my classmates.. i dun flirt in school! ok. maybe i do. only with the guys la. lol.x.. =D.. lurvvv u my honey sweetiepie. =D.. beg ur forgiveness.. =)..
hee. kae. now.. todae. miss her a lot. a lot. a lot.! haha.. realli miss u! i dunno when i can see u again.. this sat? teenzeal ok? =). teenzeal town rulezZ! haha..
oh ya. joshua! forever procrastinating. e pics! lol. kae la. jus a gentle reminder. haha.. =). mm. ok. shaun? frm fcbc one. mm. ur neck twisted.. good la! now cannot turn ur neck look at girls le. hee. kae. shaun.. take care.[aha! finally u get some recognition. =p.] haha. randford.. hee. i kno some girl likes u. budden dunno who. i dunno la. hee. kae. take it that i nv sae anithing. later sae wad.. i spread rumour.. haha. kaes.. dennz.. mm.. ohya. darren.. hee. homeworld2 and the nations. good trade. now i have both. mwahaha.. ok. =).. darliing.. i'll say sorry on behalf of all the guys in ur room.. im pretty sure we're all sorry for making ur wall from pink, become black. even if we didnt realise we did.. =)..okie.. enuff for tonight. i realli hope dearie will forgive me.. =). luvv u lotsss!!!
eugene lim.
btw. i've completed my eng compo. hee. i've given it a corny name.
Morgana Prime - The Beginning and the End...
but im knda proud of my work this time. i've never written smt like this b4 =). thx for all e support guys! haha.. and.. thx dominic for nt criticising me. =D. haha.. also written my nightmare out in paper. =). haha.. thats it.
Posted at 12:24 am by MagiCbeGiNz
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Monday, July 26, 2004
haha. today was very fun! =p. i didnt regret going for the housewarming. =).. i pity those two guys though, william and the other one. hee. so.. anti-social. haha. shuld've come into the guys room with the rest of the guys ya? den they wouldn't be so bored. lolx.
kae. altho im tired and all, from today's activities, baby ask me to blog. so here i am =D. haha. kae. im only going to write what i remembered..
ok.. todae me and marshall woke up at.. 8+.. veri early sia. den we all slack until so long. in e end my father come in ask us go bathe and get rdy. otherwise late den we kno. haha.. we reach there ultra early. like.. 11 jiu reach le. haha.. regret not spending more time with darling. now i miss her so much! hee. at 11, darren and me took our guitars out, and we played. while marshall was fooling around with my com. mmmz.
den.. at sometime. i forgot le. haha. we went out to buy mac.. at tiong bahru mrt there. haha. met randford. den we all went back to her hse. hey baby? ur house veri kawaii wad! hee.. so cute!! my hse like terror liddat. go in onli got my father there. : what is he doing here. lol..=p. but nice house..
haha. so.. we basically fooled around the entire dae. was quite fun. got to kno a few of her frenz.. i miss hugging my baby.. smelling her ginvera green tea hair.. =).. haha.. den we all played with e water. haha.. cool. did i mention? last nite. i fooling around with jacob. at suntec.. frm behind i jump.. jacob cannot stand properly he smash into the wall.. in the end my shoulder kena scrape. quite badly. haha. den dey play water de shi hou, i kena lor. lolx. pain sia. =p. the pipe hit my head not pain.. the water splash me pain.. so.. haha. darling kena knock on head.. painful! =).. watch out baby.. ok? srrie i pressed on e lump.. muackx..
haha.. hey? darling is going back to the roof. NOW? damn dangerous.. baby.. i wish u weren't the one going up.. i realli scared smt happen.. darling.. i cant afford to lose u baby! love u.. ok? bring ur hp along. thats a good girl.. if can, get ur mom to follow kae? haha. cos she left the pail on the roof. play water.. got water in e pail ma. haha.. now she back le.. she din go take. cos too dark. ya.. good girl. cos.. i scared got other ppl.. like drunkerds. up on the rooftop.. or maybe a stalker in the shadows.. i feel that im over-protective.. sorrie baby..
=)..ok.. den aft that came back in.. did some stuff.. forgot liao. haha. den we played twister.. actually i was spinning the thingie. they were playing twister. haha.. ok. den me and valen two ppl plae twister. haha.. so fun.. wanted to give u a kiss when we got so close ya? =). haha.. but when the lights were out.. i wanted to stand there.. like. forever.. and when i got to do my forfeit.. i wanted that one to last forever too baby.. love u! i gtg sleep now.. its 12 am. tmr who wake up first call kae? sure i call one. hee.. dun keep depending on me.. ok? =).. learnd to stand upon ur own feet darlinn! hee.. love u so much so much sooo much! muackx... take care alright? gnite all..
eugene.
Posted at 01:01 am by MagiCbeGiNz
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Sunday, July 25, 2004
whoa.. this is cool lol..
hee. i just typed finish my entire compo. darn its 4 pages long! lol.. if i had written it out, it would at least have taken up 6 to 8 pages of pure writin. eew. haha.. now no mood to type seh. =p. its a nice story. next time i copy paste here. haha.
todae was a good day. met darling! haha.. how's teenzeal? teenzeal rulez eh? =p.. come more often ba! hee.. ok.. now i better go slp. tmr got hsewarming wor.. darling's housewarmin! muackxx.! love u baby!
eugene
Posted at 02:31 am by MagiCbeGiNz
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